long awaited pictures!!!

ok.. I have promised to post pictures but I've still not gotten the ones from the combine outing as well as the steamboat ones... so I shall post some pics taken from my phone... ( thanks Jiakhee!!!)

me and candice on Valentine's Day

a daisy from my date!!! haha

hours after Kingsley was borned!!!

don't focus on me but the baby.. notice that he's smiling? haha

Vince Young honey!!! haha.. the newest addiion to the YOUNG FAMILY!!!

Vince's sister... Vicki Young!!!

my sister and me...

ok.. I think thats all.. got a new skin for easy reading... haha.. anyway, may I enlighten you that the YOUNG family consist of a lot of people.. my granny gave birth to a whooping 14 children!!! whao!!! can you imagine that?!?! haha.. so you can imagine how many cousins I have up to date!!! :D

Its good considering the fact that I will have more ANG PAO money!!! wheeeeeeee~ haha..

poem 9

a broken heart
a broken life
all is left for me to die
wishing for a mended heart
but all is just a futile one
maybe it was meant to be
for both of us to not to be
but all i want is a simple thing
to make you happy

ok.. before you get concern and reach out for the phone to comfort me... may i make it clear that i didn't compose this myself... serious!!! it is for a friend that feels dejected because of her futile wait for a person whom she loves.. so ya.. this is dedicated to you.. love you lots!!! if you are reading this, i hope u would cry your heart out!!!

movie marathon turn slumber party

ok.. back from Jody's hse.. suppose to have movie marathon starting at around 7pm but Candice was late... as usual... arrgh.. made me wait for her like so long la!! i should seriously learnt to be smart and be later than her next time... grrrr..

bought some tidbits and took a cab to Jody's house... when we went into the room, Rachel and Malcolm we fighting la.. haha.. the way litle kids fight for toys... haha.. tickling each other and all.. crazy la!!!

haha.. anyway, we watched part of a Steven Chow movie!! super funny la!!! and it was lame.. haha... stupid yet funny.. haha.. next, we watched "The Gods must be crazy"... if I'm not wrong, its an 80's movie... but nevertheless, it didn't failed in making us laugh hysterically!! haha.. after which, we watched "Love actually" but got bored of it so watched " Duce Bigalow-European Gigolo".. the movie was gross yet at the same time funny!!! haha.. so technically, we only like watched 3 1/2 movies? haha

after movies, we were bored.. so me, Malcolm and Candice went cycling.. ok.. fine.. Malcolm kept laughing at me when i was cycling la!!! arse hole!!! wad la!!! I have not cycled for a VERY long time can? it takes a while for me to "warm up" and get things going properly...

anyway, we took turns to cycle and when we went back, Jody and Rachel wanted to go to Rahmin to eat supper.. -_-.. so we had to go out again.. haha.. didn't eat anything.. ( surprised? hehe).. after that, continued to cycle around..

i remember that i was cycling up this slope.. wah... tiring la!! haha.. but it was worth it cause i exercised!! haha.. and while cycling, we were admiring the different landed properties.. critising some too of course.. haha.. and that was at like 4 plus in the morning? haha..

oh.. and we all totally DO NOT LIKE CHEERS!!! we were waiting patiently outside Cheers as the door was locked... ( cause the shop assistant went to the toilet) and when she finally arrived, she enter via another enterance.. so being good people, we waited for her to open the door but she didn't! WTF!!! she just started to count money!! we were totally pissed off and walked off but realised that there was another enterance.. so what.. we were suppose to enter via that door and that lousy shop assistant didn't even tell us and left all of us standing there like kukus? ass la!!! we were too PISSED and went to patronise 7-Eleven instead.

went back to Jody's house after that and played card games!!! i don't know how to explain the way the game is played but the game tested one's luck as well as alertness... the penalty was to drink vodka.. the amount is determined by the level of "pig" you are... okok... so yours truly promoted to become a very high level pig and drank i think the most shots of vodka in the game.. arrgh.. ass la!!! haha..

anyway.. this game was fun as we got to see how each one of us looked like when we were totally high~haha.. or drunk... haha.. and Malcolm was so funny!!! he started doing all sorts of funny actions and even fell off the bed smiling!!! whaha!! Rachel and me were laughing really hard!!! haha.. plus.. we were kinda high la.. so ya.. a slightest funny movement would send all of us laughing our hearts out...

i was quite happy that Candice could communicate Jody, Malcolm and Rachel like as if they have known each other for a long time eventhough they all just met her... so ya.. anyway, i think only Candice was the sober-est one while the rest of us were like drunk lords.. haha.. BUT in the end, me and Rachel couldn't take it and puked out everything!!! haha.. but i felt better and fell asleep almost instantly! haha..but the occasional puking sounds of Jody and Rachel woke me up serveral times while Malcolm the PIG ASS was sleeping soundly...

haha.. woke up at 9:30am and got ready for the interview in the airport.. i was having a little bit of hangover but it was gone after a shower.. so ya.. me and Candice went off and both of us were stoning... haha..anyway... WE GOT THE JOB!!! WOOHOO~ haha..

after that, i went back to Jody's house to catch up on my sleep and had lunch in his house... after lunch, Jody and Malcolm suddenly turned gay and started pinching each other's ass.. Rac and me just stared blankly at them.. haha

anyway, continued to sleep until 4pm this afternoon... went home and guess what!!! i prepared dinner!!! whaha.. and please la.. before u even doubt if its edible, may i make it clear that no one has ever died food poisoning because i cooked the food.. so ya..

anyway, i'm super tired now!!! haha.. not enough sleep and my nose seems to be leaking transparent watery mucus!!! yucks... haha.. u didn't have to read the sentence before if u get disgusted easily.. :p haha

fetish for older men

arrgh.. I think this post is kinda contridicting to the previous one... I just found out that I kinda like older men.. SERIOUS!!! Tom Hanks is one such person.. followed by George Clooney... great smile and talent of course.. besides them, I used to like Leslie Cheung... okok.. Rumours have it that he's gay.. wadever la.. he's dead.. so ya.. but he quite handsome ma... haha... and there is Roger Kwok.. Really cute.. and he's 41.. haiz.. old enough to be my father.. haha.. if he married really young of course. and there is Dicky Cheung and Edison Chen.. okok.. Edison is not old la.. but he's older than me ok.. haha.. okok.. he's an exception.. oh.. and who can forget Louis Khoo and Takuya Kimura!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! hahaha

whahaha.. oh man.. i think i'm going crazy!!! hehe...

Tom Hanks!!!

Clooney Darling!!!

Leslie Cheung

Dicky my love!!! haha

Louis Koo!! so cute!! :p

my stupid cousin says he has a crooked smile.. ass la!!! chung hao.. you jealous right? :p

JJ Lin.. haha.. think his smile is captivating and I admire his talent in music... SERIOUSLY!!!

TAKUYA KIMURA!!! MuackS!!!

okok... i'm insane... hehe... =) blissfully insane!!! haha -_-

okok.. really mad.. mad michelle...

let me indugle in my own fantasy first before i snap back into reailty k?haha..

* thanks sis aud for reminding me*

pissed with tiko men

I just read qwen's blog and it made me really disgusted with the Bangladeshi mentioned in her blog... wah.. I was really infuriated when I read that post!!! I just wished that I was with qwen and give him a piece of my mind!!! Like really scold all the vulgarities that I've learnt in different languages!!! Like Thai, Japanese, Malay, Tamil, Cantonese and Hokkien... and not forgetting English..

ok.. you must be thinking why am I reacting so strongly towards this incdent right? It also didn't happen to me this time...

to tell the truth, I ABHOR THESE TIKO BASTARDS! I really hate it when they start look lustfully at women. especailly Singaporean women who are fully clothed decently... OMG!!! we are decent women for heaven's sake.. not some walking sex toy that you tiko men visualise...

it sucks being a women at times.. we are always at the lossing end.. if we are molested, people look at us as "unclean". when we have sexual intercourse, we are the ones getting pregnant and loossing our body shape... and plus.. we are the ones experiencing all the hormonal changes and morning sickness... shit ass... and men just take for granted that we women should stay faithful to them while they can go and flirt and sleep around.. we women have to be the virtous wife.. always ready to forgive regardless of what their husbands do.. including having an affair outside with another women who probably has AIDS.. worst still.. the wife gets AIDS from the husband because of the vixen...

The above was just to vent out my frustrations. I have to admit... I grew up in a broken family... thats why I'm probably more sensitive and aware of the bad things that happens to the woman after marriage.. my views may be tinted but I still strongly agree that marriage is not at all a bed of roses.. even if it is, there are thorns in roses. so ya..

one more thing.. I was in the market today with my mum and this tiko old man followed us.. FUCK! I turned be hind serveral times and notice that his hand was reaching down to his "little brother " below... ASS LA... I stopped in my tracks and stared at him. BASTARD! I wish I could just shout " HEY YOU OLD UNCLE! STOP MASTURBATING YOURSELF IN PUBLIC CAN? IT'S UNSIGHTLY!" Buy I knew my mum will just scold me later so I just shut up and stared at the uncle till he felt uncomfortable and walked away...

ok... I seriously think this post is really like bad mouthing all the men... BUT all the men that I know so far are not tiko... so ya...

anyway, interview is cancelled today due to unforseen circumstances.. so I'll have to go to the airport tmr for the interview.. -_- haiz... haha..

poem 8

God, release me from the pain
Moving on is difficult
But I know that I'm not alone
For I know where You guide
You will provide
The answer is clear
I'm not to wait for him
But my stubborn mind wishes otherwise

A stern warning yesterday
Made me think twice
Thrice
But Satan wants me to defy
I'm at a lost

But the power of Your name
Surpasses all evil
Now I'm certain that I'm free
Liberated from the chains that were tying me down

more!!!! whaha

ok.. i know the previous post was more related to Christians looking for a life partner... so i've sort of drawn up a..... eh... diagram above. pardon the ugliness as i'm not as artistically inclinded as i think i am... haha.. ok.. i'll cut the crap short..

ok.. lest see.. we have three levels. the first level is the Chemistry Level.

it goes like this... guy meets girl.. girl sees guy.. a surge of electricity runs in their body and out from their eyes and WOOSH!!! both falls in love at first sight.... ok... i think u get what i mean.. this feeling can be short term.. otherwise known as infactuation.. so ya.. people are attract to the other party based on the outlook of the person or personality. this is only skin deep. so at this level, this person can only be your PLAYMATE.

the next level is the Character Level.

ok... so you have known your playmate for quite some time.. and often spent time together doing all sorts of things.. from playing to even cooking... wadever the case, the time spent together gets longer.. and then... you realise his other qualities like honesty, discipline, responsibility...... and the list goes on... at this level, you are becoming aware of this person's character. its deeper than the first one... so this person can only be your PARTNER.

the last level is Core level.

at this stage, you would want to observe how your partner reacts to situations around them and what is happening around your partner. at this point of time, your partner upgrades to a SOULMATE.

so ya... that was also what i've learnt in the seminar... useful right? hehe.. okok.. but in any case, the bottom line is DON'T RUSH! TAKE TIME!! remember in my pervious post i mentioned that we have to enjoy the season of singlehood? why do u want to rush into a relationship when u know that the outcome would only bring bitterness? enjoy!!! haha... like me!!! haha.. ok la.. not really... i'm more of a pig lazing at home... watching an insect building a hive in my house!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... WTF!!! serious!!! i'm scared but i some how find it interesting!!! haha...

10 keys to choosing a life partner

ok.. i'm back from the seminar.. woke up late today!!! ah!!! suppose to wake up at 7am but snooze the alarm clock to 8am... -_-

so anyway, took a cab and went to St John's St Margaret's Church and yea.. i was not late... haha

ok.. anyway, i think i've learnt quite a fair bit today...

the seminar is "10 keys to choosing a life partner" i think this post would be loooooooooooooong la.. but i wanna share ma my knowledge ma.. so ya...

1st key: The wisdom of seeking counsel

ok.. i shall explain... its more of seeking views from others.. be it from your parents or pastors.. this is because our emotions blind our better judgement of a person when we are in love... like for instance.. if ur guy/gal is short tempered and keeps scolding vulgarities, you might think " wow!!! so much character!!! i like~" haha.. ya la.. along that line la...

2nd key:The principle of being equally yoked

this means being compatible spiritually... and it does not mean going for every cell or seminar organised by the church.. and a cell group leader marrying another cell group leader. no.. ts not.. its about having the same spiritual devotion and passion.

3rd key: The beauty of purity

it means respecting yourself and your future spouse by preserving your virginity.. on interesting thing the pastor brought up was that men are turned on by what they see while girls are turned on by what they hear. However, both are turned on by touch... so ya... we must control ourselves especially during courtships so as to not compromise our purity for something which is just for pure pleasure..

4th key:The principle of shared inheritance

this means we choose the person who is to share our destiny. this brings me to the 3Ms

Master
it means knowing who your master is.. in this case, its God

Mission
once we know who our master is, next is finding our mission.. that is our reason for being on this very earth. why are we put on this earth? what does God want me to do?

Mate
after establishing your mission, then only are we ready to look for a mate. this is because without knowing the reason of your existence on earth, you will forever be going with the flow and not defining the purpose in your life. so how can you expect to find a mate when you do not even know what is your mission?

5th key: The presence of willingness

the thing that we always ask is " Does God have a perfect choice for me?" and we end up waiting.. thinking God will bring the person to us. no... we have to be proactive... not like desperate of course... can you imagine that you just sit and wait for the person while your future partner also has the same thinking and sits there to wait for you, you both will never meet!!! so be proactive in your search. there is also something i want to add.. there is no perfect one. but when we marry, we seek to be the perfect one for our spouse.

6th key: The key of prayer

a prayer is very powerful. it can heal and bring happiness. so it is also important to pray about choosing a right partner.

7th key: The important virtue of kindness

ok... there are certain questions you have to ask...
does he handle his money well?
does he tell the truth?
is he responsible?
do you liek his friends?
does he relate well with family?
is he kind?

you might be thinking why you have to ask the questions... because what you see is what you get...

8th key: The need for family blessings

marriage is not only a union of two individuals... but also two families. so there is definately a need for family blessings!

9th key: The principle of timing

if you are single, GREAT!!! CELEBRATE! ok.. you might think i'm crazy... but if you trust in God's timing, you'll know that actually God is preparing your future partner for you and vice versa.. so make full use of the "Season of Singlehood"!!! oh ya.. and one more thing, the older you are, the more you are able to make a better choice as you would be more mature.

10th key: The principle of the Well

ok.. this is more of a biblical term. in the bible, Jacob met his future wife Rachel at the well... so did Moses.. and some other people whom i... eh.. forgot..
okok.. so where is the well? no.. you don't have to literially go to a well... but think abt it.. in the olden days, the well was a place where pple gathered and rest, fellowship with one another.. most importantly, this was where the babes would appear.. haha.. ok la... cause women were the ones who drew water. so this well refers to...................... THE CHURCH! yup... so this principle means that while we go to church, we should rest and wait. but that does not mean that we should all go to church just to find that partner cause it is wrong.. so ya...

wanna know more? hehe.. bribe me!!! whaha.. cause i'm lazy to type the rest... and i think you've read enough.. so i shall save for next time! =)

RESULTS!!!!

I'm really satisfied with my results! =D

Business Computing Applications: B
Business Management: B+
Individual and the Community: B+
Life Management Skills: B+
Macroeconomics: B
Principles of Accounts: A
Written Business Communication: B+

GPA: 3.4167

Phew~ glad that i'm able to move on and promote to the next level of my tertiary education... ( to TF01: hey pple!!! hope that you pple passed everything!!! =D)

anyway, movie marathon is postponed today cos i have a seminar tmr morning at St John's St Margaret's Church at 9am... and plus..Jody want me to bring choi friend.. so i'm bringing Candice who can only make it on Monday.. so ya...

The seminar i'm attending is " 10 keys to find a partner". I know it sounds a little boring and all.. and that I'm too young to attend this seminar but i'm attending it for my GB girls.. so that i can educate them when the need arises especially when they are so caught up with BGR problems.. it is also a learning experience for me.. so all the pple reading this.. maybe i can help u... with a token fee of $10 per hour!!! hiak hiak... kidding la... i'm not so bad can.. i won't charge you la... haha...

anyway, the holidays are half gone and still, i've not done anything that i want to do... i actually wanted to go backpacking in Europe.. but my cousin is not free.. so i'll have to shelve that plan.. was thinking of going to other island of Singapore like Ubin or something but scared later everyone dun wanna go... until Malcolm told me the other time that he wants to go to Ubin!!! wooohoo~ haha.. so maybe can plan a trip there afterall!!! haha...

and i suddenly feel like fishing... no.. notfor guys.. but really FISHING!!! i went once with Gengyan, Yiyang and Candice... was great fun going out to the open sea and bonding.. but poor fishes died because of us too.. haiz... however..i still wanna go cause its fun!! haha..

anyway... i'm going for an interview on Monday for the Dior job..I'm more or less confirmed employed.. but the boss wants to see us and give us our uniform.. so yar... wish me luck!!! :)

results?

ok.. i just read wengfai's blog and it reminded me that i'll be getting my results tmr!!! oh man... it nerve wreaking la... considering the fact that i did not even study well for all my modules... sianzz....

i of course have my desired results... they are...

Macroeconomics : B+
Principles of Accounting : A
Business Management : D/C ( have to be realistic la.. considering the fact that i screwed up this paper.)
Business Computing Applications : C
LMS & IAC : B

haiz... i really hope that i'll see all these results reflected on my result slip tmr... sianzz... anyway... i've gotten a job!!! yay!!! haha.. but its only for a week.. haiz.. but better than nothing la..

Promoting Dior perfume... i hope all turns out fine and i will not meet the physco cleaner again!!! arrgh... he dare disturb me i KICK HIS ASS AH!!! hahah... no la.. i won't la.. probably scold him like crazy... :p

movie marathon tmr!!! woohoo!! so excited!!! gonna watch so many movies!! but i'm very angry with Cai Xu.... willl never reply my sms... arrgh.. forever one.. will take her like 323578657457678656 days to reply the sms.. haha.. no la girl.. kidding la... dun use vulgar words hor... haha... CBox will sensor it k? hiak hiak... Caixu... if you are reading this, i wanna borrow you American Wedding DVD ok? get back to me asap...

tagged by marie

tagged by marie -_-

My Perfect Lover
Instructions: The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

Gender: Male la... haha..

Qualities:

1. Love God
My perfect lover has to love God. That is something most important to me as loving the same God means loving me for what and who God made me. And by loving God, it means that he'll also able to bring me back to God when I back slide.

2. Maturity
I personally feel that this is rather important in a relationship as one party has to be mature enough to think through the concequences of an action... especially when I'm sometimes quite inmature in the way i think..


3. Respectful
This would mean that he is not only respectful to me and his parents, but also to other people.I do not hope for him to love all my friends, but respecting them by not bad mouthing them is good enough.

4. Intelligent
No.. I do not mean having an IQ of a genius... what i mean is that he has to have at least the basic comman sense..

5. Hardworking
It's important for my other half to always strive to be better. To be hardworking. I do not wish for him to be the most successful person but he has to have backbone.. Not the ones that supports the whole structure of our body.. Like not giving up to temptations or failures.

6. Sense of Humour
He does not have to be Russell Peters in order to achieve that. I mean its not even stand up comedy la... so ya... haha.. he just needs to know what to say to me to make me feel at least better or happier and not make my day so mundane.

7. Speaking proper English
My perfect lover must at least know how to speak decent English.. I mean its difficult to even communicate if he is constantly speaking to me in Hokkien for instance.. I would probably die of exhuastion trying to communicate with him...

8. Good character
I don't really give a hoot about how my perfect lover looks like. But he must at least look normal la... like presentable. But good character, I feel can bring out one's beauty. And it's good character that makes me attracted to a person.

ok... i think thats all... anyway... hehe... i shall tag...

Jiakhee
Michelle Chow
Xingyi
Jiehui
Alicia
Audrey Chan
Kailing
Audrey Tan

Mrs Lee

i was not sure what made me think of my late principal Mrs Caroline Lee but i'm glad that memories of the past came back to me...

i don't know how to put into words the things that she had done for St Margaret's... but her sudden death on 7th May 2004 made me realise that i should never hesitate to tell anyone how i feel or how much they mean to me...

i admit that i'm guilty of making fun of her behind her back when i was younger... but as i grew older, i realised that she was not just a principal. she was like a mother, ready to nurture anyone whom needed to be and always ready to forgive. till this day, i still miss her... i was flipping through my secondary school report book and saw one of the reports slips that was signed by her.. above the signature read "go for it!"

although it was a simple sentence, it was definately soothing to the heart that at least someone as high and mighty like her in the school would encourage me...

i remember that the whole school was folding paper cranes for her when we knew that she was hospitalised. you might think that it was a waste of time but at least it took our minds off the possibility that she would just leave the earth.

when it was appoximately two, my form teacher came into the classroom with her tear stained face. we knew almost immediately that it was bad news. all of us broke down and cried.

for that moment, the whole school was silent. only an occasional sniff was heard. not a single word was spoken. the school was grieving for the lost of their dearest principal.

i will forever remember the day she passed away as it was a day before my 17th birthday. i remember peering into her coffin during the wake and making a solemn oath that i would give in my best for my O levels.

i did my best and topped the level.

"Give of your best to the Master". This is the phrase she always uses to encourage us and this phrase will forever more be etched in my heart.

You raise me up
So I can stand on mountains
You raise me up
To walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be

To Candice: Thank you for being there for me last night when i needed someone. You are the best friend that I've ever had.

* thank you for being honest with me. at least now i know that i can move on. may we be good friends* =)

poem 7

confession from the bottom of my heart
true and sincere
though you might have known
please allow me to get it out
for this agony of intensity brewing within is horrible
consuming my happiness
my life
my sanity

if you ever looked at this
i hope that you will know
that you are special
and i will wait
for the day you come clean with me

i do not wish for a positive answer
for love cannot be made to order
i respect your choices
to find your perfect partner

but please end this quick
for i want to move on
to find a new focus in life

new book!!!

just came back from united square and got myself a book..

Title: To cut a long story short
Author: Jeffery Archer

ok.. i'm so excited to read the book... i think his stories are really interesting... i got hooked to his books when i was sec 4 or 5... i was forced to read a book for a book review and caixu introduced me to this book,

Title: A twist in the tale ( i think.. some thing along that line la..)

wooo.. i read the first chapter and it totally blew me away~
from then on... i loved his books...

i'm kinda a lazy person.. and i certainly dislike reading... but for Jeffery Archer books, i'll read it for the whole day!!!

haha.. enough crap.. i'll start on my reading now... =)

combine outing

woke up at 6:30am today... wah.. super tired so went back to sleep.. and then... i was suddenly jolted from my sleep as i remembered i had combine GB/BB outing today!!! crap... i quickly woke up and got ready for the outing.

went to st marg's and took a chartered bus to East Coast Park. When we've reached there, we had singspiration and Shirleen taught all the boys and girls a funny yet interesting song in which you have to shake your butt... haha.. it was great to see the boys from the BB doing that.. haha.. btw, they are sec school pple.. so you can imagine how hard i was laughing when they were shaking their butts... haha

you must be thinking why i'm i so happy right? cause i was holding the lyrics for the pple.. so i didn't have to do it!!! hiak hiak... evil right? BUT Mr Bernard Yee ask me to do with the boys and girls when all officers were suppose to do -_- oh well...

later, we played tag... wah... i was catching this boy from the primary school.. ass la.. he's so agile la... run and dodge.. couldn't even catch him.. and Bernard has to say into the mike " Miss Tan... you can do better than that la... quick catch the boy.."

haha... okok... i know you must be thinking... " erm.. he's just a kid la... and you cannot catch him? hiaz... to heavy la... " -_- wad ever la... haha

oh... and then we had to play this game in which the winning team gets to throw water bombs at anyone he/she wants... and i thought i was safe... note the word thought..

i was happily seating in my group and watching Bertram get wet when suddenly, a water bomb fell on my back!!! it was Grace la... apparently she has a water bomb and under the suggestion from Hui Shan to throw the water bomb at me, yours truly was wet... it really caught me by surprise and i sprang up on my feet... i felt my back and my shirt was soaked throughout... including my... erm.. you know la... if you don't know... its the BRA la!!! haha..

both Grace and Hui Shan were laughing hysterically while i squeezed water out of my shirt... fine... I WANT REVENGE!!! haha.. so when one primary school girl didn't know who to throw the water bomb at, i gladly suggested to her " Throw the thing at Miss Cheong!!! " and she did!!! woo hoo... revenge is sweet... haha.. oh.. and stupid Terrence sabo me today la.. ok la.. not really sabo.. but abetted the GB girls who want to throw the water bombs at me!!! arrgh.. i wanted to run but Terrence grabbed me and shoved me to the GB girls.. and ya... wet again.. arrgh...

haha. but he couldn't stay sumdge for long... cause a primary GB girl threw a water bomb at him!! whaha... i was so delighted and said " awww... now you are wet.." haha... but he didn't allow me to be happy for long... he took the remaining water in the bag and poured it at me!!! arrgh... ya.. so wet yet again...

oh... one more thing... Bernard is sly... he didn't want to get wet so he threatened the boys and girls that if he got wet, no lunch for them... and i was one of the living targets for throwing water bombs at alongside Shirleen, Bertram, Boon Kiat,a Primary school teacher... courtesy of the boys of girls of course... grr....

BUT... the living targets ran to Bernard and so... Bernard got wet... hiak hiak...

after games was lunch... you might think all is normal by now right? WRONG! we had to feed our buddy!!! all of us were paired up with a primary GB/BB girl/boy... and my buddy was Vishnu... haha.. and yea... he fed me and i fed him.. haha.. seriously, only my mum has fed me.. and it was a freaking long time ago.. so yar... he's lucky to be the first guy to feed me... haha..:X

after lunch, we had more games by the beach.. and it was burying time!! haha.. had to make sand castle by burying some of the group members.. haha.. although i was not buried, i had alot of sand in my shirt, shorts and even the undergarments la!! wa lau..

after beach games, we washed up and got ready to go back...

went to eat dinner at Pastamania with sis today... and guess who i saw? i saw a guy working at Giordano... he looked like one of my orientation leaders and saw him a couple of times in canteen 1 as well... think his name is Micquel? Mitchell? ah ya... dunno la... haha... maybe someone enlighted me on his name? haha..

i'll post the pictures of this outing when i have them.. together with the ones from the steamboat as well... for now, i post some from the dinner on thursday...

rib eye steak... looks good and taste good too!! hehe

i'm just glad that my face didn't itch and turn red despite the drinks...

still the tallest... sianzzz
its Chivas that made us become frens..

going crazy and high~

my secret garden and MoS

Had a wonderful time yesterday!!! firstly, went to meet Jiakhee at Bugis... then i saw Catherine ( or Katherine), Julia and Vincent... BUT... the girls didn't know how to get there so we eh.. sort of followed a map... a group of SINGAPOREANS holding on to part of the map of Singapore... finding their way... fancy that... haha... anyway, we managed to find our way around the bustling streets and roads and ended up in a rather tranquil liked restaurant... go look at Jiakhee's blog for the pics and all... and i was having a freaking acute migraine... and almost half of my dinner time was spent on stoning and eating.. but something totally embarressing happend to me again~

ok.. we were talking and i couldn't really hear what the other girls were saying.. so i walked over behind the seats and suddenly there was a huge bang! wah... i thought what happened! i turned back and saw a speaker fall of the wall! WTH!!! i just walked pass la! i didn't even touch it can!!! and it was very loud!!! you can just imagine how i look... face was burning red.. so quickly went back to my seat and took the menu to cover my face :X what an impression... haiz...

anyway, putting that incident aside... after dinner, we went to MoS... was my first time there!!! and we surpassed all the queue as we were VIPs!! wooohoo!!! hows that for my first visit there... haha... anyway, we were joking to Joanne ( our boss) about ordering Chivas and we will promote it... guess what? she order a bottle of it!! whaha... we were like... " huh? really order ah? "

anyway, Chivas with 7-up on the rocks taste better than Chivas with ginger ale... serious!!! even Jiakhee agrees with me... haha.. went to walk around and hit the dance floor with Jasmine, Val, Jiakhee, Brenda, Aunty Helen and Joanne... wooohoo~ but now ears a bit blocked la.. haha..

oh.. and we saw some interesting things as well... this girl.. (i think she's horny) was dancing on the dance floor with a guy( her bf?). and she was totally limp like kiam chye la... ok la.. it just an analogy.. but you know what i mean right? haha.. and another guy was masturbating himself! WTF!! we were like all staring at that guy and even Aunty Helen, Joanne and Sandra join us... haha.. it was funny yet at the same time revolting...

later, we got bored.. so we decided to "scout" for cute guys.... hmmm.. but all so erm... nevermind... haha.. Brenda and Jiakhee went to look for guys and finally came back with 3 Hong Kong guys... they were ok... the rest of the info is only between me and Jiakhee... hehe...

partied till 4am this morning before catching a cab home... and the taxi uncle took a wrong turn and i ended up paying 10 bucks for my cab fare... but its ok... at least now he knows how to go to the road...

despite the early morning sleep, i woke up at a whooping time of 8:30am!!!

haha... i just don't understand... i was freaking tired and i woke up after less than 4 hours of sleep? cool~ haha... and i'm feeling super hyper and awake now!! yeah! haha...

and oh... to Jiakhee... now i know how you walk when you drink too much... hehe... =)

aftermath

i wish i can get rid of all the anger which has been brewing for a long time inside me. but it all takes time. so for now, just don't ask me about who made me a pissed and all.. cause i'd really want to forget about it.

just listened to Kelly Clarkson's "Breakaway". the meaning of the song is clearer to me. especially now.

anyway, i've got a dinner with my boss and team of colleagues later in the evening. hope that my spirits would be lifted up and that i'll really enjoy tonight..

fuking pissed

i really regret taking up this responsibility... it seems that nobody even appreciate us.. we took the time to come down to help you all and all you gave us were crap? i mean face it.. all of your attitude were horrible. take time to reflect on your attitudes especially on the way you do your stuff. it really pissed me off. and by the way, i was talking on the phone cause i was venting my anger on my fren so that i would not scream at you girls.

grow up and think maturely. its not like the world is rotating only for you. learn to grow and stop being so self-centered. lend a helping hand. it seemed that only a few of the girls were doing the project. and it was after much asking and persuasion for you girls to start on some other areas of the project.

i'm just too pissed to blog about yesterday... and it happened to be one of the happiest day of my life.. will do it some other time.. for now, i'll just post some pictures taken from ciaxu's blog...

the blackie swan

marie, me, caixu

the white swan

will post pictures from steamboat when i have them...

movie!!!

went to school today for orientation meeting... and Rachel told us the wrong block of our meeting!!! arrgh.. make us wait like goondos in blk 73... haha.. anyway, my group is in charge of the performance part... which means, we have to think of the scripts and find the actors.............................. after that, had yong tao fu in school.. haha.. haven't ate that for so long already... haha..

we were bored after that and did not wish to go home early. so we decided to catch a movie.. when we reached Cineleisure, Jiakhee, Rachel and Jody wanted to watch Dorm. but me and Malcolm didn't want to and I suggested Nanny Mcfee.. but shit.. no more seats and the next movie was at five plus... went to PS to check out the moive timings and shitty Malcolm played me out!!! in the end he agreed to watch that movie.. so i complied...

walked around PS for a while and i was happy!!! hhah.. while in The Face Shop, Rachel and Jiakhee were looking at nail polish and sly Jody wanted to put black nail polish on my fingers... hiak hiak.. and the best part was the polish dripped on his fingers!!! whahaha... retribution for always playing a prank on all of us... hehe...

nearing 4:45pm, we went to buy some snacks and drinks.. was a little uncomfotable about the movie but Rachel said it was fine... and the best part... she didn't want to sit next to me cause i grab people when scared -_-

haha.. nevermind.. i don't blame her.. i pitied Malcolm though.. haha.. cause he sat in between me and Jiakhee!!! haha...

i remember during the first few scenes of the movie, i was grabbing Malcolm... and guess what he was doing? he was hidding behind his bag!!! whaha.. it was hilarious considering the fact that he was scaring me even before tthe movie started and kept say " ah ya... not scary one la..."

in the end, both of us were half laughing and half covering our eyes... hehehe...

but i didn't regret watching the movie... cause it was really nice.. storyline is good and there were some touching scenes at the end of the movie... made the lady beside me cry...

anyway, on my way home, i realised that we actually were watching the preview!!! and the movie does not open until 16th March... no wonder the tickets were 8 bucks... but it was money worht spending :)

alright.. i think i'm going to be eating all day tomorrow... seriously!!! haha.. firstly, i think i'm going for a sushi buffet with Marie, Kailing, Caixu and Candice... at night, i'll be feasting at Marina Bay... eating steamboat with my GB kakis... whao... GREAT!!! i love tmr!!! haha..

okok.. i think you are having the -_-" face now... wadever! haha...

To Wengfai... don't play basketball already la! later hand break leg break... shoulder already dislocated still play!!! piiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! haha

poem 6

Guys drinks to forget about the girl...
Girls drinks to think back about that guy..
When guys are in love, they become poorer
But when girls are in love, they become prettier
Guys can forget, but cannot forgive...
Girls can forgive, but cannot forget..
Guys care most about the quantity of love...
But girls care most about the quality of love..
Guys break-up when they feel love from another Girl...
Girls break-up when they feel Separation from her man...
Guys feels curious towards all girls...
Girls feel curious towards the guys who are Interested in her..
When guys are heartbroken, they try to forget the girl by going out with other girls...
When girls are heartbroken, they try to find his Characteristics from other guys...
Guys wish to be her first love....
And girls wish to be his last love...


took this from xingyi's blog... after reading it, i feel that there is some truth in it... especially the last two sentence... don't you think its so true in the modern women and men? i think it is..
anyway, i think all of us have our ups and downs in a relationship.. whether if its with our parents, friends or your significant other... i feel that there is no such thing as unconditional love for the other half in us humans.. maybe my perception is tinted... there is a saying... every man for himself... it just shows us how selfish people are...

Just watched Survivor.. it was super exciting and i was at the edge of my seat during the challenge... I support La Mina... but they had to go for tribal council today!!! arrgh :( and Dan the man had to go home... shit... i was hopping Casaya would be in tribal council today and that irritating ass Shane would GO HOME!!! man... he is one irritating bastard!! keeps pushing the blame to other people and thinks that he is the superior one in the tribe when he is just a wussy!!! arrgh!!! ass hole..

Bad things always befall the team or person which i support. For instance, i support Kim in the America's Next Top Model.. although i already know the winner since ages ago, i was hoping that Kim would make it to the top 3.. but NO... she only made it to the top 5... wah.... freaking pissed!!!

Maybe i should support Casaya and then La Mina would be saved!!! haha... wishful thinking on my part... haha... but anyway, i think the teams are going to merge... so i'll just see...

anyway, things are boring at home.. except the fact that i was busy exterminating ants from my kitchen... haha.. those teeny weeny creepy crawlies have got the nerves to infest my kitchen... so i used the insectide.. wooo... they are all gone.. but i suspect there are more.. so i shall check it out later... haha...

anyway, I'm just bored at home... SERIOUSLY!!! stoning at home is no good...

poem 5

it all started with a mere smile
it captured my heart
and made it melt
though it was just a few moments
it seemed like forever
i've never dreamt that we would be together
but at the end of the day
i wished it happened

you were special and different
and stuck out from the crowd
like a red rose in the middle of snow
exuding so much charm

no matter what happens
i sincerely hope that you will know
that there's someone waiting patiently
outside the door of your heart

pig in the making

i'm such a pig... i slept till 1pm today!!! it's like sleeping for like 13 hours lah!!! :o and i'm feeling a little gorgy now... wah... crap la... anyway, i wanna go out!!! like go somewhere to do something... or maybe work... so sian at home... nothing to do.. and all day long i just stare either at the stupid black box or the computer screen... it's not helping me cause it only spoils my eyes... haiz... and oh.. i just visited qwens blog and saw a pic of her dog chocolate... it's a maltese i think... but it's so cute la!!! so fluffy and soft.. like the clouds in the sky... haha.. no no.. a cotton candy!!! woooo...

ok.. i'm going nuts.. i suddenly have this urge to go eat steamboat and bowling... arrgh... i seriously think that i need to DO something... or else i'll be like a pig... eat and sleep... sleep than eat... wa lau... it sucks la...

anyway, i shall strive to be more productive... it's just scary sitting at home and waiting for the exam results... i mean its nerve wreaking because subjects which you think you've done well in might turn out otherwise... i remember that when i was doing my O level practical for Physics, i was too rash.. and hence, i plotted my graph wrongly and my calculations were all wrong... i panicked.. but i did not have enough time to amend the mistakes... i gave up and just wished that i would at least get a B3... when the results were out, i was overjoyed!! i've gotten an A1!! haha.. maybe the Cambridge examiners were cock eye.. hence, did not spot my mistake.. hehe...

whatever the case, it is in the past. now, i just pray that the people marking my script are cock eyed too... cause i have to admit, my handwritting is horrible.. Marie calls it "Barcode handwritting" -_-

oh.. whatever... haha.. anyway, enough of my crap...

poem 4

it hurts
when the one you love does not love you anymore
when a love one dies
when the love cease to exist

but it hurts more
when the one you love loves someone
when a love one dies because of you
when the feeling of love comes back
drawing many painful memories
which comes to huant you everytime

ok pple.. i think my tan is going away... shit la... my face feels tight.. and i think i'm going to peel.. shit... arrgh.. can't i just stay tan for many days months years??? unfair ass... why does my skin repel such good colour and vitamin? wa lau...

anyway, woke up just now and mum gave me a list of things to do:
1. clean my own toilet
2. clean my own room (aka pig sty)
3. fold clothes

i looked at my room and it just totally gives me no motivation to clean it up.. its just so messy la... like papers strewn all over the floor and table, clothes just hanging around, bags lying all around and worst still, my tv urgently needs to be cleaned!!! arrgh... damn...

now you must be thinking how i survived with a room as messy as this? haha.. i seriously don't know! haha.. but i can always find my stuff when the room is messy. if its neat, i'll just take hours to find something... stupid right? i find my messy room a little appalling at times... and some might have this cliche thinking that all girls are suppose to be neat and all so princessy in their behavior. wth.. gone with that old, stuck in the mud thinking... usher in the new age girls!!! haha.. where being messy is not a crime, dressing up is just a hassel.. just look presentable...

hiak hiak... i sound like i really detest the perfect girl... but it true.. especially if i'm not.. haha... anyway, i've been hearing JJ's new album for some time now.. to tell the truth, i really admire him for his talent... and i like the songs inside.. and they are all stuck in my mind... haha.. i mean, that is what all singers want to achieve right?

haha.. and on a randome note, Chileed Heng... you owe me super a lot of treats from your survey... and you don't call me auntie ok? i might be older than you by like a few months, but still? respect la... haha.. joking la..

poem 3

all i can say is.... I HAD A GREAT DAY TODAY!!! woohoo~ haha.. went to Jurong East to swim with jiakhee, rachel, kailin and jody... read jiakhee's blog for more details and pictures of course... but now, i'm freaking tired... and i'm tan!!! haha.. but my mmum says" still the same colour wad..." -_-

can't she just say something to humour me? darn... oh well.. i have a whole line of things waiting for me to do!!! firstly, go eat steamboat with my GB kakis, den go and have a sushi buffet with marie, kailing and candice!!! den go ice skating and then plan sessions with the girls for their artifact competion... and then.. get a job real fast.. haha...

oh.. and winnie just msg me to tell me that my ex-colleagues from UOB send their regards to me!!! whao... they STILL remember me!??! haha.. i remember them of course.. and how much trouble i've caused them.. like asking them qns.. and i think they almost puked blood teaching me how to deal with the customers... ahhaa.. but whatever it is, i still got through it! yay!! haha.. i'l be seeing them tmr for lunch i think.. hehehe..

and oh.. i gained like 15kg when i worked there.. WTH right? haha.. cause i ate like nobody's business.. so i shall shun from office work for the time being... haha...

today

I think i ate too much today!! Met Candice to go swimming at 10am and after that, we went to Lavender Food court to eat the prawn noodles... Nice~ BUT... i think i ate too much today!!! ahhhhhhhh... let me list it out for you
prawn noodles
popiah
dessert
french fries
one taiwan sausage
two otahs
one chocolate sundae....

wa lau.. all in just a matter of hours!! i'm begining to wonder if my stomach is a black hole a not... eat so much la... and i nearly went to pastamania to eat the pomodoro... wah... at this rate, i think i'll be seriously broke... and today, i told Candice this

Me: i think i need to find a boyfriend to finance my eating expenditure
Candice: haha... mee to... i need a person to finance me for maybe my shopping habits
Me and Candice: whaahha

okok... i'm being mean... wanting a boyfriend just to finance my eating habits... but but.. erm... no choice ma... i very much want to use my own money.. but i always feel the pinch!!! if u pple do not know, my eating expenditure is WAY more than that of my shopping ones. ask any of my friends... they'll tell you that i eat non-stop!!! haha..

getting a boyfriend is one thing... maintaining a relationship is another.. i once watched a cantonese movie and i distinctively remember that this guy told this girl " the first year of the relationship is passionate... while the second year is about being responsible..."

ok... fine.. if thats the case... i don't want a boyfriend.. it sucks la!! having to know that the guy is still with you just because of mere responsibility... WTH... i'd rather be a lesbian then... :p kidding la.. haha..

oh.. and on a random note, i want to name my son Uriah... ( if i ever have one) it means "God is my light"... great eh? haha.. and if its a girl, she shall be named Vera... it means "faith" in Russian or "true" in Latin.

poem 2

A sincere heart
A sincere prayer
To save me from this world of deception
For I did not choose You
But You chose me
A gust of fresh summer wind
Short but sweet
But Your love is sweeter
Strong and everlasting

The vine lives because the tree it grows on lives
Thats how my life is
So ever dependent on You
But I do not fear death
For You are the great I AM
The Rock of all Nations
The deliverer of my soul

poem

eternal gratitude.
towards a beautiful stranger.
oddly familar
yet strangely distant
why did you come?
to wreak my life?
or to create rainbows?
i was once lost in your embrace
but now,
i just wish that you would go away
for the intensity is killing me
every minute,
every second.


after reading my own my own original poem, i think to myself " hey! i have an artistic flair!! " nah~ i'm not flaunting my talent.. heh heh... just wanna prove that i can write something.... sensible? hmmm.. not sensible.. erm... something which i feel that my failing artistically inclined brain can think of :D

MEIJI!!!

I love Meiji dark chocolate!!! its nice la... plus, its better than milk chocolate because it has a higher content of cocoa... hehe.. so if u don't happen to know, cocoa is good as it helps in reducing high blood pressure... but eat in moderation of course....

Went swimming with Candice yesterday morning... and guess what? I got tan!!! haha.. ok la.. not really tan, but red rather.. like a cooked lobster.. haha.. but I'm back to my original colour... ahhhhhhh!!! darn~

anyway, here's a song that is just stuck in my head for the time being... it goes like this:

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something thats of worth
that will touch your heart

I'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
its not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about you
its all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thinking I've made it
when its all about you
its all about you Jesus

King of endless worth
no one can express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath

I'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
its not what you have required
you search much deeoer within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and its all about you
its all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for thinking I've made it
when ita all about you
its all about you Jesus

2nd entry

I'm just so tempted to post another entry.. haha.. because I don't feel like sleeping.. haha.. so I shall tell you a story.. DON'T YOU YAWN NOW!!! haven't even start la!!! ok.. here goes :

there was a girl by the name of Mandy. She was working as a tempory staff in DFS which is in the departure hall.. she was very happy about her work as the staffs were not only good to her, but also taught her alot of things.. like as if she was their daughter... all went well for her until that fateful day. she had been working there for almost two months and she thought she had seen all kinds of people. an italian( or french) man walked into the shop and demanded that she served him. without delaying a single second, she picked up a shopping basket and served the customer. the man granted "i want cigarettes." and she immediately brought him to the tobacco section and he took two cartons of Marlbaro cigarettes. as there was a promoter, she decided to pass the sales to her as there was a daily quota for her to meet.

While Mandy was handing over the shopping basket to the promoter, the man suddenly snatched back the basket and handed it over to Mandy and told the promoter " she is serving me". Both the promoter and Mandy were dumbfounded but they knew very well that the customer is always right. Hence, Mandy persisted in serving the customer but was wondering if that man was up to no good.

As they approached the cashier, the man decided that he wanted to get some chocolates since it was near Christmas. Mandy told him to pay first as the chocolate shop was a different shop. But the man insisted he wanted to get chocolates first and even asked Mandy to go with him. She didn't want to, but after countless pleas from the man and fearing that this would cause the promoter to lose a customer, she relented and went together with him.

While in the shop, the man asked Mandy if she like chocolates and asked her to choose. Immdiately, her six sense told her something was not right and she said " I don't eat chocolates". The man smirked and continued his selection of chocolates before paying at the cashier. It was bad enough for Mandy to be in another shop during working hours and to make it worse, the man kept rejecting the chocolate shop's staff offer to help. It was embarrasing as curious stares were directed in Mandy's direction. She just wished that the ground would just swollow her to save her from the man.

After paying for the chocolates, Mandy heaved a sigh of relief, thinking it was the end of that traumatic experience. But, the man didn't want it to just end this yet. He continued to ask Mandy to take a picture with him which she agreed to once again.

After which, she quickly made a mad dash towards to exit and to the shop she belonged to. There, she confided into the promoter and both of them made sure the man paid for the cigarettes which he did.

Mandy was relieved that all was well and continued her chores when a shadow was cast over her as she was kneeling down to pack the stocks. She looked up and to her astonishment, it was the same man again! She smile calmly and asked if he needed assistance but her heart was racing and her mind was in a whirl. The man smile beamingly and asked for Mandy's number.

Mandy was stumped for words but she announced clearly and calmly that she was married and that she was pregnant. The man's smile immediately disappeared but he managed a small smile and mumbled " oh. then your husband is a lucky man. For he has married a beautiful wife." At the moment, Mandy was thrilled that someone had praised her but she did not let it show. She graciously stretched out her hand and shook hands with hime while saying " it was nice knowing you".

The man left shortly after. Mandy was quite surprised that she could handle the situation as she was only 18 and a novice in the service industry.


ok pple.. this is the story.. haha... good nite!!! :)

woohoo~

all right pple!!! I'm officially FREE!! yeah!! Finished my last paper at 11am today!! woohoo!! can go and unwind myself at last!! haha.. but the truth is, I don't feel like I'm totally liberated.. cause I'll be a worried kan chiong spider about my results and all.. so I will need to go out and really go CRAZY so that I'll at least cast all these worries aside.. :) haha.. so yea... anyway, there is nothing to be happy now.. cause I have no job.. unemployed.. seasonally unemployed.. haha.. so I'll just pray that I'll get a job real soon~

However, I'm happy cause I'm going to attend Audrey's church.. Westside Anglican Church.. hopefully I can fit in.

oh yar.. Kingsley shaved his hair!! he looks so cute la!! went to ching's house today and saw Charles too!!! And its their wedding anniversary too!!! so HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY!! haha.. anyway, back to Kingsley.. he's so sweet!! when I stepped into the house, I saw Kingsley lying on his rocking baby bed, fully awake and so hyper-active!! he was like wrestling and kicking his legs all around.. haha.. and his head, now free of hair seems to sit precariously on his neck.. like as if he's not "fragile" la.. the small and round head makes me even more afraid and at the same time to be more careful when handling him...

went to Ikea to eat lunch today and ate the swedish meat balls!! OMG!! i haven't had that for such a long time... i almost forgot how it tasted like!! and that how succulent the meat balls are. I'm hungry now.. but i feel paralyzed... haha..

and i saw poh poh today.. haha.. she's working in Ikea selling hotdogs.. and i bought one from her.. not bad la.. but i didn't know that the mustard is hot la.. wa lau.. and that stupid Zhi Wei put so much chili!! ass la he!!! the whole time my tongue just feels numb from all the excessive chili sauce.. i can't even taste the hotdog.. to be specific, i think i'm eating chili dog instead of hotdog la...

and for the 3454578967754th time, my mum told me her plans after the en-bloc sale which is ongoing at our estate.. haiz... the same things over and over again... i think she plans to buy two houses.. one in Balestier and Serangoon... woohoo!! that means i have two houses!! one for weekday stay, one for weekend!! haha.. and i think the house in Serangoon has a swimming pool... hmmm... not a bad deal eh? haha... but the decision is not finalized yet..

oh.. but i hate moving houses.. cause i'm always the one doing all the packing!!! and all the carrying!!! and i hate it!! wah.. my mum said this to me that made me feel pretty upset :" you are so big size, might as well make yourself useful." wa lau.. its not my fault la.. its all your "factory's" fault la.. for giving me such a genetic make up and bone structure and whatever that contributes to me being big size...

but i still love my mum ah... haha... and she finished my vodka!!! the apeach one!! wa.. i intended to take my time to drink lor... and i barely drank 1/4.. before i knew it, the empty bottle is on the kitchen table... so much for planning a stay over for my cousins and friends la... and my mum finished it... hiaz...

next time i needa buy more bottles of red wine.. she digs them.. especially those which are... eh.. i forgot the name... but there is a pic of a fox on the bottle.. the last time my mum bought one carton of it from my uncle.. and within a month or so, all of it is gone.. but of course i drank too la.. but not so much la.. haha.. but before you start to think she's alcoholic, may i make it clear that she's not.. she just enjoys it la.

ok.. i think thats all la.. for now.. shall find time to go out and get tan!! haha..

older men :D

here's a picture of Hong Kong actor Roger Kwok... I think he is related to Leslie Chung... cause they look so alike!!! haha... anyway, I think he is kinda good looking despite his age... I think he is 41? haha...

and here we have Jessica Hsuan... I think she is pretty... Seriously... look at her! she's got the " love me" look... haha... and she is tall too!!! haha.. same height as me!! but a pity... looks are totally different!! hiaz... so sad for me.... whahaha...

they are both my fave Hong Kong artises. Don't you think that they exude an aura of charm? I think they do lor... haha... but one man's meat is another's poison... so yeah.. and oh... I found out something interesting!! I've been workin out for the last one month or so... and I just weighed myself and my heart sank as the needle point to the same figure as it always had for the last one year.... WHY I'M I NOT LOSING ANY WEIGHT? I mean I've come to terms with myself being rather tall and big size if u wanna put it ths way... but my routine is simply not helping me in losing weight... darn... haha... but I'm sure that I have muscles now... and I'm proud of it! :D

aiyo! heck la... haha.. think i'll just give up the hope of losing anymore weight.. and just aim to retain my current weight which is of an acceptable one! haha.. I'm so gonna eat after the exams TMR!!! yay!! I wanna go Newton... haha.. and go Pauljean's hse to sing karaoke!!! heh heh.. I think her neighbours are so gonna "love" me for bombarding their ears with the melodious songs!!! haha.. and oh... I wanna go bowling!! anyone interested? haha...

the last paper tmr marks the end of my first year in Ngee Ann poly... and I seriously think that all these education in the tetiary institute is going too fast for me... its like a week is just gone in just a blink of an eye.. and soon, its the exams, project submission and yada yada.................

Reflecting back, i think i did not put in my upmost effort as compared to the first semester.. as much as i love the freedom in poly, it is also the cause of my downfall.... i relax tooooooooooo much and play just too much! so much so that all my piorities in life are all messed up. i sometimes wonder if i made the right choice and whether or not going to SAJC would have been a better alternative... but... wth... i can't choose anymore right? so i just have to stick with my choice... but the only thing i didn't regret going to poly was that i made so many wonderful friends!!!

My tutorial group is simply the best... Jiakhee for always informing us of classes being the best class rep and working partner as well!!! Kailin for letting me vent my frustrations and war-crying which always never fails to put a smile on my face... Audrey for doing crazy things with me, Jianhui for always being in the same IS class with me ( haha... why ah? haha) Rachel for being my eating buddy ( price is not a problem), Tas for just suaning everyone, Nicholas for the " whatsia", Sajee for being my primary, secondary and poly fren!!! haha... and Feezah for her cheerful laughter... Alicia for always being there, Kay for always being so ever funny and just so fun to be around with... Jiehui for all the gossips we share.. Jody for his encouragement, Malcolm for his sensible remarks ( at times only.. heh heh..) Pauljean and Daisy for being so nice and so girly... I have to learn from you both.. haha.. and Michelle Chow!!! haha.. we both share the same name and almost the same level of humour frequency as well!! haha.. Wengfai for his " pilah!!!" haha.. last but not least... Zhi Wei la.. haha.. my god-brother.. for always being my sandbag... haha.. but it made you tougher right? haha

also my frens who i've met in primary,secondary,poly,work.......................................................

yup... its like as if i get some prize in the star awards or something like that haha.. but my point is that i wanna thank everyone la... but my class more important ma... cos i always see them.. so they create the most impact la.. haha.. but I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS OK... so yeah.. haha..

ice skating

it has been i long time since i've rollar blade.. and i think my skills have detoriated alot... not forgeting to mention the fact that i'm not as nimble as before too... haha.. anyway, i really hope to go to east coast soon with kailing, marie and caixu (if she starts replying our msges!!! that kuku!!) haha.. my piority is to re-learn rollar blading. hmmm... then i shall cycle!!! yeah!! maybe i should get a bike and cycle as and when i like... but i'm currently cash strapped.. so yeah.. no money, no talk.. haha.. and last but not least, to get a tan!!! woohoo!!

i hate it when i'm fair because i look sickly and all.. not to mention the fact that the tiko men might think that i'm part of the chinese prostitute family.. arrgh... it angers me to even think that those tiko men are stripping me in their tiko mind!!! gross!! simply sends shivers down my spine!!!

anyway, tanning also gives the skin vitamin d if i'm not wrong.. so its not bad afterall!!! i get to look healthy and still get vitamin d on my skin!! cool!!! haha.. okok.. but excessive tanning would cause dehydration.. so i shall be mindful...

after east coast, it shall be ice skating!! weeeeeeeeeeeee~ haha.. marie suddenly asked me on msn...

marie: hey!! wanna go ice skating together?
me: haha.. ok.. but i'm not good at it, so you gotta teach me
marie: haha.. ok.. i bet you'll skate like a ballerina!
me:... is it because of the winter olympics in Torino that made you wanna go ice skate?
marie: yeah! its figure skating now and it just looks so graceful!!!

haha... in my heart, i was thinking " yeah.. like we will be so graceful while ice skating.. we'll probably look like elephants trying to dance with their hind legs in skates!!" haha.. or maybe in my case la.. haha.. but i think it'll be fun!! considering the fact that its something new, a new experience!! hha... and a new place for me to fall... haha... okok... thats besides the point.. but the point is that we've always gotta try something new. life is too short to be wasted doing mundane stuff all the time.. i mean it good but the novelty will wear off after a period of time...

to date, i want to do so many things!!!
1. wind surfing
2. play the violin
3. go back packing in Europe
4. go kite flying!!
5. sailing
6. go to Bangkok for budget shopping
7. try out life in NS for a week

haha.. okok... iknow the last one is a bit.. erm.. yeah.. but i dun get the chance to see and experience life in NS, in fact, most girls don't get the chance.. so i think it'll be pretty cool~ i think... haha...